People keep telling me not to symptom watch. I’m not a very good listener at the best of times (and this certainly isn’t the best of times), so I’m doing it anyway. Maybe I’ll live to regret that next week, maybe not. Who cares?
My 2 day transfer was 5 days ago. In theory if my little average embryos are still alive they should be implanting now. I consulted Dr Google about implantation bleeding because I was very skeptical it was a real thing. These embryos are microscopic. That means very, very, very small. One or two microscopic dots burrowing into my lining will cause bleeding? Bleeding? Really? A needle hardly causes bleeding and that is not invisible to my naked eye. Anyway, I was wrong. It is a real thing, but apparently only happens about a third of the time. If you are about to Google it too, I urge you not to. The first thing that comes up is a picture on Google images of someone holding their sanitary pad up to the camera with implantation bleeding on it. I worry about humankind sometimes and this kind of thing doesn’t help.
I am also watching out for implantation feelings. I have had some mild, sharp pain the last day or so and today. For this to be implantation I will have to ignore my theory that something microscopic can’t cause pain or bleeding in reality, but only in the minds of loony bins like me. So be it. Implantation feelings, check!
The only symptoms I really have are progesterone-induced sore, giant boobs, cramp from egg collection and a headache. The cramp has been pretty bad. The first couple of days after egg collection were just uncomfortable, then I awoke on Tuesday morning to horrific, sharp, stabbing pain in my abdomen. This was no burrowing embryo. It felt like a smear (or pap. Why do we call it smear? That is such a horrible word) test was being conducted with a sharp knife. Obviously I toughed it out for two hours because I am hard, but I caved eventually and called the clinic, did a pathetic cry down the phone and went in to see the doctor. After a bit of poking, prodding, scanning and blood testing, it was confirmed that I would make it. They think the pain was due to fluid that had collected behind my uterus after egg collection, combined with my endometriosis and basketball sized ovaries. I feel much better now, albeit somewhat crampy.
Also, if being irritated and grumpy is a pregnancy symptom too, then I am 99% positive that I am probably definitely pregnant.
Ok, ok. I basically have no symptoms. Symptom Watch is turning out to be pretty boring.
I’ve told myself I won’t test early. I obviously wasn’t listening very hard (see above) because I bought 4 pregnancy tests in town today. The clinic already gave me one, so that makes 5. Either I am planning on doing 5 tests in a row next Friday (Official Test Day), or I have a covert Test Early And Daily special ops planned. Who knows. I’ve told myself I won’t test early and I’m not (usually much of) a liar.
So we have one more week left of the two week wait. Half of me is wishing the time away and half of me wants to stay forever in the place where I might still be pregnant.
P.s. I am computer-less this week and my iPad is (rudely) blocking me from commenting on other people’s blogs. I wrote a few really long, important messages as well that are now lost forever. I’m sorry if you think I’m not rooting for you/excited about your good news/lamenting with you. I totally am! I imagine I will inundate you all with messages next week to make up for it.