So, I bet I know what you are wondering. Why isn’t it possible to lick your own elbow when it really, really looks like you can when you look at your own elbow? Why do I always, always put my knickers on inside out even when I try really, really hard to work out which way round they should go before I put them on? When there is so much air around, why do flies always fly straight into my hair or into my eyes? These are questions I can’t answer, so please stop asking them.
I imagine you are also dying to know what have I been doing the past two weeks while I have been navigating the dreaded Two Week Wait. Yes? Thought so. Well, I can tell you that I have been a busy girl. Evidence:
1. I have read a lot of books (current tally, five since egg collection, plus two that I just can’t get into and yet persist in a half-hearted I’ll-read-a-chapter-on-the-toilet kind of way). I am currently reading Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides, thanks to an excellento recommendation from Red Blue Bird.
2. I have taken a lot of naps. These have been highly successful since a) I am knackered all the time b) I am very lazy c) I have had crap all to do all day the last two weeks, and d) It is hot.
4. I have embarked on a number of ill-advised bakery exploits that have generally ended in a big sticky mess, albeit a sticky mess that tastes okay provided that you eat it with your eyes closed.
5. I have spent a lot of time complaining about cramp and how scared I am about stopping progesterone today.
Between all the reading, napping, deer safari-ing, crap baking and whining, the Two Week Wait has passed pretty quickly for me.
So (drumroll) the verdict is in, and I am Officially Pregnant For The First Time Ever. I feel very lucky, especially since I barely scraped through the whole process with any eggs, embryos, or sanity to show for it at the end. I hope I stay pregnant; I am in unchartered territory now and I don’t know what to expect. The clinic told me there is a 20% chance of miscarriage, which I will endeavour not to think about. I am still panicking about stopping progesterone so early, but it is how they roll at my clinic and they do have a very good success rate. I guess I’ll just have to trust them and hope that my ovaries or corpus luteum or whatever is supposed to be mixing up and making the progesterone is better at it than I am at baking.
So that’s it. I’m pregnant and Betty is currently not barren.
(not so) BB xx
P.S. Just spoke to the clinic again and convinced the nurse to ask the doctor to write me another progesterone prescription for an additional 2 weeks, score. She seemed to think I was mental, but I don’t care.
P.P.S. Viability scan is booked for 12th August. Please be viable, please be viable, please be viable.
P.P.P.S. Please don’t freak me out with progesterone-stopping stories of doom, I’ve read loads on Google already ta.