I learnt some pretty cool things about the number thirty three today. For example:
– 33 is the atomic number of arsenic (I wonder if this has somekind of cosmic significance given my news below)
– 33 is the largest positive integer that cannot be expressed as a sum of different triangular numbers.
– A normal human spine has 33 vertebrae when the bones that form the coccyx are counted individually.
– The divine name Elohim appears 33 times in the story of creation in the opening chapters of Genesis.
– 33 is not only a numerical representation of “the Star of David,” but also the numerical equivalent of AMEN: 1+13+5+14=33.
– it is a song by The Smashing Pumpkins on their album, Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness.
– 33 is the international dialling code for France (home to my favourite cheeses, and coincidentally (?) also home to one of my favourite bloggers).
After that little list you’re probably thinking, hang on a minute, what is NOT COOL about the number thirty three? Well friends, I shall tell you. It is NOT COOL when you have a lead follicle after 7 days of stims that is 33mm. No, not cool at all.
If you recall, I managed to grow three big follicles after the Zoladex disaster, but we decided not to do an egg collection. Instead we decided to wait, wait, and wait some more then start with 450iu Meronial, under the assumption that we should get quite a few more eggs that way. My ovaries were obviously listening to that little optimistic chat, because they have worked their evil magic and instead of growing me lots of nice follicles, they have concentrated all their efforts and grown one super lead follicle of 33mm instead. Shit.
There are a couple of 15mm ones (I think, I was in there on my own and fairly mortified and therefore pretty much not listening). I’m carrying on with the maximum dose over the weekend and having another scan on Monday. That big follicle is absorbing all the drugs and preventing the smaller ones from growing, but hopefully the 15mm ones will grow enough to allow an egg collection.
You are probably almost as bummed as me now. I’ll tell you a little (true) story to cheer you up.
I came back into the waiting room after being scanned. At my clinic, a sonographer scans you then you wait for a nurse to talk you through what they saw and the next steps. Obviously, with all the treatment and scans I’ve had, I am practically a sonographer myself now so I watched the scan in progress and quizzed the lady/just read the scan myself so I knew the score. It was bad. I gave my mum the brief facts when I returned to the waiting room, but I could feel myself starting to cry so I couldn’t go into detail. We both sat there staring glumly at the fake flowers in the middle of the room. Then another patient came out and sat down next to her friend. Let’s call her, Annoying Woman.
ANNOYING WOMAN’S FRIEND: How’d it go? What did they say?
ANNOYING WOMAN: Great! I’ve got 38 eggs growing!!
ANNOYING WOMAN’S FRIEND: Amazing!!
ME: Pulls face at my mum
ANNOYING WOMAN: The nurse said it was brilliant. She said it’s just like two big bunches of grapes. And loads of them are 18mm as well!!
ANNOYING WOMAN’S FRIEND: I can’t believe it, that’s so good.
ME: Whispers to my mum I am feeling stabby.
MUM: Laughs Good job there are no weapons in the waiting room.
ANNOYING WOMAN AND FRIEND: More drivelling on about her 38 egg bearing wonder ovaries.
ME: More face pulling
MUM: Not whispering at all Well if you ask me, I don’t think 38 eggs is good at all. I think it’s a worry… I mean, 38!! I’d be more worried about that than just having 2 or 3. Surely that number can’t be good for you?!
Take that, Annoying Woman. POW!
I can’t believe I am saying this, but we’re probably looking at 2 eggs again. Hopefully. Maybe. Please don’t tell me “it only takes one”. I know that it only takes one, but most people don’t only have one or two to choose from. It only took one last time: 2 eggs; 1 embryo implanting. Look how that turned out. I can feel history repeating itself already.
This is all getting so expensive now with very little to show for it. If I do get an egg, it had better be an effing platinum and diamond egg this time and not just a golden one.