Do you want to know what’s annoying me?
Okay, who am I trying to kid. Of course you do. You guys.
I’ve upped my protein intake during stims (again, because it worked so well the last few times didn’t it). I’m trying not to eat
any much sugar or any many carbs, so I’m snacking on nuts if I feel nibbly. I’ve been snacking on brazil nuts every now and again, and every single time I eat one, I sing “bra-ziiiiiiiiiil.”
If you don’t know why that’s annoying, you probably don’t watch football. If you do, I’m sorry, because it probably just annoyed you too.
I CAN’T STOP.
1. Coconut water still tastes of dribble. Thanks Turtle.
2. I’ve just finished Fall of Giants and Winter of the World by Ken Follett*. Brillo. If you like William Boyd books, I’d say you’d like them. I also absolutely LOVED Pillars of the Earth and World Without End. I’m about to start Restless by William Boyd now, for your information.
3. I think I am physically incapable of drinking 2 litres of water a day. This is interesting because I’m pretty sure I could knock back 2 litres of wine.
4. My clinic have an, ahem, interesting music collection that they pipe into the waiting room. A current favourite seems to be Skinny Love by Birdy which has been playing every time I’ve been there recently. Last time my mum came with me she whispered (shouted), “Good grief, as if this isn’t depressing enough.” Aye mum, you ain’t wrong there. If I had an IVF clinic, I’d play pan pipes. Can’t go wrong with pan pipes.
5. I’ve had the Ted Hughes poem “Crow Blacker Than Ever” going round and round my head. How, when and why I committed this poem to memory I can’t tell you, but I can tell you it’s stuck there and it won’t go away.
6. My first monitoring appointment is Friday and I am bricking it.
I’m trying to just focus on one day at a time, but it’s not exactly very easy given that I’ve been failing at this for 4 years now and I’m coming to the end of treatment. I think I need distractions. Can anyone set me a challenge?
*I am not offended by children being born in books, especially ones set in the past (these books are set in both world wars) or in the future, however if you have an aversion to this then I suggest you do not read them.